"Next in line please"

"Am I missing something here?" is the expression I used all to often when it came down to God pouring out his blessings all over the place, people from church being blessed, folks on your job getting raises, family members driving pass you in they new ride, friends calling you everyday with a new "testimony" all the while your suffering seems unbearable. Now let me just state for the record, I ain't never been no hater but God really? Do you see me? I had some tough  questions for God at this low point in my life and I really seeked to gain understanding of why things would happen seemly so easily or timely for others but I was stuck waiting in line. No seriously, I had to really pray because anger could have easily set in and bitterness out of my lack of understanding, lack of patience, and just being plain ole sick and tired of being sick and tired. I was seeking relief from God but totally gong about it the wrong way, and it was frustrating to me because I looked around me instead of looking up, instead of looking at what was inside me, instead of seeing the big picture, I felt left out of the blessing movement. Gladly, that's not where this story ends, yeah I wish it could end with me saying " ...so I became a millionaire" but no I haven't, what I have gained in knowledge is far greater than the dollar , dollar bill my friend. I learned how to wait. Now, I understand no one really likes to wait, especially when you can see it right in front of you, like teasing a hungry child with its favorite candy. But I assure you God is not out to torture us, just teach us. The bible says "Wait on the Lord, be of good courage and he shall strengthen thine heart, wait I say on the Lord."(Psalms 27:14) See, where I first went wrong is, I was so focused on why I DIDN'T have I fell ungrateful for what I DID have. I can admit to being a little bit of a drama queen (friends may exaggerate that statement) but I felt like it was not fair. I was careful to tread lightly with those words, see in that God is a righteous judge and sees all and knows all. It was more about trusting God, really having faith to believe that whatever I went through, that he was with me and that he wouldn't put more on me than I could bare. Thant he wouldn't leave me comfortless but come to me (John 14:18) that he would give me strength in my weakest hour, and hope when I was in despair, that he would give me joy when I was in sorrow, and show me that everything really wasn't as bad as it seemed.


I had to get a new perspective on life. A new look at who I claimed to serve. GOD. The all knowing all powerful, creator of the universe, surely my little problems was no match for God, but without God really being my COMPLETE source in my life I was overwhelmed, blow by blow, seeming to never really be able to catch my breath or keep my head above the water. I relied solely on my job, a my source of come (fool smh) and the help of my friends and family (double fool). Bu all God wanted me to d was put my trust in him. While I was burdened down with my issues he was saying cast your cares upon me for I care or you, come unto me and I will give you rest, take my yoke upon you and learn of me, for my yoke is easy and my burden is light (Matthew 11:29). Yeah, I believed that, I knew his word and I would feel good when I heard it but when the repo man took my car while I was at work, I wasn't quoting no scripture, I fell right back into my emotions and became upset, worried, angry, frustrated and confused, that God said he would help me and things were getting worse. I was at my wits end. I have the honour of having a mother that is very strong in the faith and keeps me grounded and focused. And while  was on one of of my many tangits, she just calmly said "What are you afraid of Chrissy?" "Let it go".... Just like that I broke down. I realized I was holding on to all this stuff, material stuff, I felt validated me, that spoke for me to say whether I was a success or not, and had lost sight and let go of the one thing that had sustained me all along. God. So, as I sought his word and prayed he showed me that the trying of my faith worked patience. (James 1:3) I had to understand that my hope could not be built on anything tangible, that though I had lost everything, I could stand firm in my faith that God would supply all my needs according to his riches and glory through Christ Jesus.(Philip. 4:19) That God was faithful, even in my tribulation. That though I I was troubled on every side, I was not distressed, perplexed but not in despair, persecuted, but not forsaken cast down but not destroyed. (2 Corinth. 4:8-9) That if he said he would deliver me he would. I had to hold on to my faith and trust God to be who he was, unrelentlessly, giving him full control over my life and the direction of it. Now that could be challenging when you been doing it your way all your life but I'm telling you its worth it just to take everything to God and leave it there. He will give you a peace that passeth all understanding ( Phil 4:7) and people who know what your going through will be like how can she smile and go about living when everything in her life has seen a dead end. But I tell you of a truth my friends, God who ca raise the dead can raise us out of any and everything that holds us back. Most of the time its us, our wayward thinking, and lustful desires that hinder us from receiving the promises of God. We must cleanse our hearts and minds and be thankful, have faith, trust God, and keep moving forward. Keep pressing, because trouble don't last always. The bible says weeping may endure for a night but joy cometh in the morning (Ps. 30:5).


God will provide, he will come through. We must keep a praise on our lips and thanksgiving in our hearts and stay focused on doing the work that he has given us before his soon coming return.  We must learn how to be content in whatever state that we are in (Phil 4:11). To be thankful for the breath we breathe because his mercy's are new every morning(Lam 3:22-23), it is by his grace we are alive and given another chance to get things right on this side of life, because when we die we can no longer repent, we can no longer forgive, it will be too late and we will be judge according to our works. So, have things gotten better in my life you might ask, a little, things are on the rise, but no longer to I look at my situations, I dedicate my time an attention on pleasing God. The bible says seek ye first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all these things shall be added unto you (Matt 6:33). I can rest and be assured that if I take care of Gods business he will take care of mines, and we have confidence in him that if we ask anything according to his will he heareth us: and if we know that hear us, whatsoever we ask we know that we have the petitions that we desired of him (1 John 5:14-15) So, stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord (Ex 14:13), wait your turn in line, rejoice with your sister and brother in God and know that God is no respecter of persons ( Romans 2:11) If he did it for one he can do it for another. We must seek God for the direction of our own lives, no two lives are the same, we all have a specific purpose and must go through different things for God to be glorified in our lives. We must realize that our life is not our own and we cant dictate what exactly happens every moment of our lives but we can control what we do and how we think in those situations. Remember God is in control and the sooner we let go and release our will to him, patiently wait on God, joy in our tribulation, and have a continued praise in our mouths, the quicker you will be called to your blessing..."NEXT IN LINE PLEASE"...... Peace be with you all.. AMEN.


Hopefully, through this writing you have gained some knowledge or even some peace about your own situation. I pray you are strengthen in your walk with the Lord. I am available if you have any special prayer requests, questions comments, or concerns. Please feel free to comment below or email me for private consultation at deliveranceisontheway@gmail.com or via face book under Chrissy Divine. I look forward to hearing from you guys soon, thanks for your continued support and positive feedback. Muah!